one day, alone

It is discomforting to know that your friends are looking to be in a relationship.

It is an part understandable want, but I do not share it.

I am aware enough to know that that means that they running towards a goal where I will not follow them.

And if they are lucky enough to find those relationships, I find it natural that they will prioritise their new families. I am afraid for what that would mean for me.

I know it is not selfish of me to wish for human connection. Yet, I can say the same for them too. And so, I cannot expect them to stay for me.

A stand-still spectator in a game that is not theirs.

There is yet time.